I always win

It's just my nature that guys will try their very best to convince girls to like them.
Maybe I'm weird but I often convince girls that they do not like me.
and I always wins.
It's not that easy to score a win on me I guess.
:)

Sooner or later

All I can taste is this moment.
I know that this will sooner or later be over.
But I just don't want to miss you right now.

So, I continue to do what I'm doing.

The all seeing eye.

And here comes the Lie.
=)
I think you have just insulted my intelligence if you think I'll believe that.
Just don't tell me if don't want to.
So, why bother lying?
here it comes, here it comes.

Just friends.

And I wonder how this will work out?
Reading back all the previous messages and screen shots gives me nothing but silence moments.
Knowing the feelings that were once so strong to her is no longer there.
The fact of Knowing that she no longer feels the same for me is no doubt a killer inside.
It happened, but only for short.
and I wonder how this will turn out. I wonder.
I hope, I pray.

Knowing.

The Things that I want to do, but it can't be done.
The Things that I want to say, but it can't be said.
The Things that I want to show, but I can't show it to her.
Knowing that she's all I have ever wanted, but I can't do anything and nothing can be done.
Again, back into the water.

Wish, I can only wish.

The truth.

I could hear you crying very loudly through your sound of silence.

You said you are deeply hurt because of what I said to you.

But can you see how great my despair is? You don't.

when you twist and misinterpret my words.

Saying that you mean nothing to me.
When You really do mean everything to me now.

Saying that you are a burden to me.
When I will do whatever I can just to carry you into my arms.

Saying that I don't find girls attractive and you don't feel wanted around me.
When I'm already being mesmerized by you and I don't want to find other girls attractive, the reason why I want to be around you so much.

Saying it pierces your heart that I was insensitive to you because I don't appreciate you dressing up and putting on makeups to make yourself even more beautiful than you already are.
When I really do hope to see you in your confidence level being at it's highest when you enhances your beauty just like any other girls would do and blow me off my shoes, but all I ever wanted is to let you know that you are already very beautiful to me as you are, and I am very worried that you will feel uncomfortable and tired having to do all those every time you are out whether you're with me or not.

Saying that you don't feel special around me because I said that I will only be a little sad if you were to be with another guy.
When I'm in love with you so much that I will never give you out to another guy even with my life at stack, but what else can I do if I've lost your love to another guy? besides holding down the great pain, faking a smile and let you go to him so that you will feel happier with him and that you won't have to bare the guilt and feel sad for me because all that you will know is I'm only a little sad in losing you.

and you go on without giving me a chance to explain to you what I really do mean behind my words.

Reject me.

Ignore me.

The pain of someone that I'm so in love with, telling me that whatever I said and was trying to prove to her are not worth believing at all.

The truth is, I'm a lot more vulnerable than you can ever imagine.

I'm hurt just like how you feel hurt.

There are so much I wish you knew.
and now you know.
I'm very glad that you found this blog.

The Name

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